[IN]Adequacy

I envy those people who are living out their dreams. Those people who have the strength and power to make all of what they dream about a reality. They are simply fantastic. Amazing. And just admirable.

Yeah, okay. I know that everyone possesses that kind of "magic" and potential inside of them. I know that with all the perseverance, and our endless potentials, anything can become possible and attainable. But then, reality is a lot tougher and complicated than that. One needs more than just dreams and hard-work. Let’s be realistic. 

In this world, your passion's warm and burning flame can be exhausted by other people's shiny medals and list of awards and achievements. Your ideas and creativity sometimes do not stand a chance to a degree coming from a premiere college or university. At times, even the good luck of other people can pull you down. But I guess that's also a talent—being at the right place at the right time, or knowing the right people. 

Aside from all those, there are still lots of other factors to consider. Like if following your dream job pays well or at least can be enough to sustain your basic needs; and how your family would feel and react to it. 

Thus, I also envy those characters in the animes who are bound by nothing in reaching their dreams. Has the confidence to fly. Doesn’t let other people affect their determination. Creating a road of their own. How I wish life is that easy—with family and friends behind your back and always supporting you, with you being very passionate, self-assured and lucky, with your worth and efforts being recognized and appreciated. But unfortunately, it isn’t always like that in the real world. There are lots of uncertainties.

It may also be true that it’s only me that’s stopping me from succeeding and achieving all my goals in life. But I don’t know. Things seem to happen to prevent me from really getting there. Though I haven’t fully given up with everything. I’m still here, struggling. I just wish I have more luck and won’t be a bother to my family or others with all of my insisting. I want to be good enough. But don’t everybody?