A Slice of My Cake

Talking with Angelica earlier this morning made me remember of my apprehension with whether or not I am walking on the right path. Well, you know, the usual life worries one has. Doubts and wonderings if I am heading towards the right direction or perhaps I’ve gone astray—stuck and at a lost with what to do, where exactly to go, etcetera, etcetera. 

Thinking about all those again now, I think that as of now, I am simply just going with the flow. To tell the truth, I may be going with the flow since forever. Just letting myself get carried to wherever, exploring and trying out what people say “might just be the thing for me”. I am uncertain if that can be considered as threading my very own path. Maybe I’m just trekking on the path that has already been conveniently set and created. After all, I am not as brave and bold as those other people who can make their very own.  

nakaka-miss din pala ang magkaroon ng crush na nakikita mo talaga ng personal. yung bang normal na tao rin gaya mo. hindi isang idol o sikat na aktor o kung ano pa man.

More Habitats~

charybdis, the painter... 2010

                             doll house party... 

theme: midsummer night... 2011

  dino cave... completing the dino quest

Kathleen's Poem

while cleaning drawers, i found my younger sister's Filipino Project... a poem about her...

Ako si Kaka, batang mataba.

Bagamat may pagka-tamad,

Mayron pa rin namang magandang nagagawa.

Mabait at malambing sa kapwa.

Tunay na kaibigan talaga.

Ako si Kaka, maswerte’t pinagpala.

Pamilya ko’t ako’y lagging magkakasama.

Mahal ko ang aking ama at ina.

At sige na nga,

Pati sina Migo, Ate Got at Ate Sig ding mataba.

Ako si Kaka, batang makulit.

Ibig ko ay magkutingting ng mga gamit,

Kaya kadalasa’y inaabot ng mga pagalit.

Pero ayos lang, Masaya pa rin.

Hangga’t may musika na karamay at kapiling.

Ako si Kaka, ikaw sino ka?

Ang mga trip ko ba ay trip mo rin?

Ugali ko ba’y parang sa iyo rin?

Kung oo, aba alika’t tumabi sakin.

Maging magkaibigan, ika’y lalo kung kikilalanin.

Blue Pen and Notepad

and once again, i'm back to drawing/doodling...

 

Journey of Hope, Destination: Happiness

[IN]Adequacy

I envy those people who are living out their dreams. Those people who have the strength and power to make all of what they dream about a reality. They are simply fantastic. Amazing. And just admirable.

Yeah, okay. I know that everyone possesses that kind of "magic" and potential inside of them. I know that with all the perseverance, and our endless potentials, anything can become possible and attainable. But then, reality is a lot tougher and complicated than that. One needs more than just dreams and hard-work. Let’s be realistic. 

In this world, your passion's warm and burning flame can be exhausted by other people's shiny medals and list of awards and achievements. Your ideas and creativity sometimes do not stand a chance to a degree coming from a premiere college or university. At times, even the good luck of other people can pull you down. But I guess that's also a talent—being at the right place at the right time, or knowing the right people. 

Aside from all those, there are still lots of other factors to consider. Like if following your dream job pays well or at least can be enough to sustain your basic needs; and how your family would feel and react to it. 

Thus, I also envy those characters in the animes who are bound by nothing in reaching their dreams. Has the confidence to fly. Doesn’t let other people affect their determination. Creating a road of their own. How I wish life is that easy—with family and friends behind your back and always supporting you, with you being very passionate, self-assured and lucky, with your worth and efforts being recognized and appreciated. But unfortunately, it isn’t always like that in the real world. There are lots of uncertainties.

It may also be true that it’s only me that’s stopping me from succeeding and achieving all my goals in life. But I don’t know. Things seem to happen to prevent me from really getting there. Though I haven’t fully given up with everything. I’m still here, struggling. I just wish I have more luck and won’t be a bother to my family or others with all of my insisting. I want to be good enough. But don’t everybody?  

Charybdis' habitats 2011

start of the year habitat... new year celebration~

getting more serious with quests... and also trying to be more creative with decorating habitats~

fun picnic at the beach~